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Note created August 4, 2007
today was perfect with the temp at 24c
Note created August 1, 2007
WOW hot outside =33C-chillin at home with the A/c on full so its like a cool room & i go outside everynow & then to warm up!Today i managed to grab abit of herb,hard when theres No place that openly sells weed.We Need a compassion club here in sudbury asap!we have a major cancer centre for the north,& 150 HIV+ persons ,& all the other lethel diseases that pot smoking helps out.Need to get a vaporizer asap so it will be easier on my lungs.Feeling ok little tired though but the meeting went ok.I am worried about my bru & franco & wats next?Peace N love all!
Note created July 10, 2007
As a single perHIV,i have found it almost impossable to date.You think about when you should inform them about your status all the time!Trying to gage the best time to tell others is hard,because you never know just wat they are thinkin about you.I have done about 6 talks on HIV-AIDS & Harm Reduction & methadone awareness ,& most say how brave u r for standing up & telling everyone that u r HiV+,but i am not doing this because i am brave
Note created July 6, 2007
13,000 Iraqi's maimed in 2007 & the year is only half over! Make love NOT war!Get a grip Peoples!
Last edited August 16, 2007 by joeniceguy2007@gmail.com • Note created July 25, 2007
Well today i took a little "Speakers Training" & learned a few things to add to my repetoir ,making it better for my personal WAR on HIV.I really don't think they know how serious i am at access aids .I will try & learn all i can,but still seem to be stuck on facts & figures about HIV,& am having trouble gettin my story down so its good enough to tell to others,but where do i start?guess a good start would be at the beginning of my life,which started on Jan 6 1963,in the Hotel Diu Hospital in Kingston Ont.The oldest goughs & parents moved to sudbury in the early 70s.In 77 James Sr. died while sailing on Powell River B.C. & so mom had to pay for 2 funerals.Gramps hung up when mom asked him to borrow some money to burry my dad & said he never liked him anyways,at least thats what i was told a few yrs back.Trying to go through your life isn't fun .Something about it is very theraputic though i so i blog on,ok,now i forget where i was!~figures~loljkok back from j break & now i am not into bloggin about myself,as i know myself already~!but this isnt supposed to be fer me,i guess its to help others in watever way i can.ok so now my father has just died,& i am 13 yrs oldwe move to kingston for a year,then my mom remarries thinkin we needed a father figure,only she picked an alcoholic salesman,& we didnt hit it off to good from the beginning & it went quickly downhill from there untill it got to him chasing me with a knife & cops escorted me off to the welfare office.where i was issued a 90 emergency check,i got my first place on hazel,i remember because at night we used to watch through an open vent, & watch them cleaning bodies.so i soon drop out of school as well & strart selling weed to support my party hardy lifestyle i was now full into,everyday it was the same,wake up score some weed & then hang out downtown selling joints,all the while we slowly gathered up our cases of beer then we head to some party place,drink,smoke,pass-out.next day was the same .in 88 my bro doug died in an car accent on his 22 B-day,he had passed outin the middle of the road & a car came along & not seeing him,dragged him 400 metres before relizing something was wrong.Ambulence was there right away but had to wait 20 min fer the tow truck & he died on the scene.I was living in SS marie at the time,& remember the police man telling me he had died,& i tryed telling him their must be some mistake.Soon after i got a call from my mom,& had to tell her Doug had passed away & it still remains one of the hardest things i have ever had to do,- On my 27 B-day party i took my first needle of cokecaine & knew immediatly that i was Hooked-the feelings & sounds were a rush!i spent the next 10 years delving into the world of coke,again selling to support my habit,which was steadily growing more expensive,i was having to move more coke & was soon jailed for trafficking coke,did 3 months & was out.in 96 i was charged with murder 2,spent 16 months in jail & then was aquitted at trial.Hell i had no place to go,i wasn't ready for release & just wanted to go back to my cell,& 3 months later i was back in.I had been out for 3 months & grandpa passed away from cancer & at least i managed to make it too his funeral before landing back in jail,this time on a home invasion charge.I got 6 or 8 months & went to monteith from Northbay.few months after getting out my cell partner & i hooked up,partied for a week, he left come back a month later& we again started useing heavey,only this time he od'd,& i tried working on his body ,giving him CPR for 20 min untill fire & ambulence arrived they tried to revive him but Jackson was gone,at rest & peace at last.i was living on beach st & then elgin st rooming house,& stayed in a room,cleaning the place in exchange for the room,again sellin here n there,untill finlly had enough & signed into detox. I was there 2 wks when on friday i found out my ex won a million bucks!I dont have to worry about my son ever again i thought,asif eh?then monday came & i found out my 21 yr old daughter was in hospital,dyeing from HPV.I went & stayed by her side most of the time,going from detox to the hospital kept me clean & when my baby girl started to cry when her hair started falling out,I went home & asked my bro gary's ol lady lynn to cut it all off which she did .She started crying when she saw i would go that far just to make her feel alittle better & she was never so proud she said.her 22 Bday july 5 we had a fireworks show for her & it would be one of her final moments of joy,as exactly a month later she passed away on august 5,2004,2 days after being sedated. I had already lost my ex brenda & friend dave that summer from HIV-AIDS!i can't believe i didnt mention her,as we went out for 5 yrs while useing,& she was HIV+ & i was still negative untill a few years later after we had split up.Everytime i see a butterfly i think of her & smile.ok so now where am i at?well i am not sur once again but believe i am up too 2004.Anyways my son & i had started hangin out & he helped me alot through that .My mom had a stroke 2 yrs ago & has just been released from Hosptial with diabetis.I am at this time going through a court case.& the charge is fraud.Dec 6 i go to trial and i am out on bail signing in 1 /wk at the police station. I have been clean off of needles ever since signing into detox 3 yrs ago & am on the methdone program.I am currently not on meds but am on multi vitamins & selenium supplument.I try to eat alot of fruit & stay healthy.I now smoke pot to help with my eating,if i dont smoke,i dont eat,its that simple.I know i will die a slow,painfull death.Just how slow will depend on when i start taking HIV meds& i have just gotten my geno-type test done & should now know wat meds will work & what meds won;t.My cd4s were last at 780,a jump up from 355 & My Viral load was 3,000.So am waiting to see my next test which should be soon to see what course or direction i will be taking.I have done 5 talks at local places in sudbury ont. & am hoping to get my idea"Caravan of Hope" up & running in time for the olympics in 2010.I want to go across canada doing Harm Reduction safe sex & HIV-Aids testing Promo.12 HIV+ persons traveling across canada doing these talks at different places.Breaking into smaller teams would mean we could hit more schools at the same time.So far this is just my idea,goal,watever .its wat i would like to do.I thank GOD everyday that i am clean & almost serene!.Peace & love NOT wars & walls!
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