With All These Religeons,How come so Many Wars?Where's The Love?

Well i am single once again as the girl i was seeing decided she wanted too sell crack to make some quick cash!That was last week,& i havent bothered to call & see how's she's doing,i know how she's doing & what she's doing=crack heads don't change overnight.I knew she would go back to useing because she was getting very bitchy & trying to start a fight so she could justify her useing-i didn't buy into that & told her to go ahead if thats what she wanted & sure enough,it was.I am a coke,heroin & speed addict with 3 yrs clean time in & cannot allow ANYONE or ANYTHING put my sobriety in jepardy.I am HIV+ & so i smoke pot to help with my eating & nasea,as well as to help me relax & it puts me into a better frame of mind.If injesting alittle weed now & then raises my quality of life,well,i'm in like flynn!& it does,just ask any cancer patient,or anyone that is sick & dyeing a slow & painfull death can attest that weed does indeed,ease side effects of toxic drugs we have to take to kill cancer or HIV virus.Its also used alot to aid peoples eating,as when U R on toxic meds,you often have nasea & simply dont feel like eating.Smoke a J & wait 1/2hr & then you might be able to keep something down,u hope.sometimes i have to smoke a couple of them to kick in the munchies.Guess it depends on how good your product is eh? Living with HIV can be hard at the best of times.You have to change your whole lifestyle if yu expect to live for awhile.Eating healthy is a must.Complimentry therapies are also good to help you win the war against cancer or HIV.At this time the ave life expectency is 24 urs after diagnoses,with some advancing alot faster then others. I find that dateing is almost impossable when your poz.You have to change so much,lifestyle,diet,your outlook on life changes as well.I have learned to apreciate the smaller things in life & don't sweat the bigger stuff,i give all my problems over to the lord & just trust in him & his son.Your faith is tested bigtime.You keep hoping that maybe they will find a cure in time,or another pill that will extend your life for another day,month,year! You try & keep up to date on the newest treatments,newest meds that are under developement,& anything else that might help you in your battle with cancer or hiv or whatever disease it is that is putting your life at risk.Then there's all those "green tea cures" or cures of some type or other.For along time the south african Gov. told their peoples to eat beetroot & lemons to keep the HIV virus at bay.Another president says he has the cure,& its only available on certain days of the week.You have to wade through all the garbage information,of which their are TONS,& just trying to find the stuff thats legit is aq battle initself!Theres so many websites out there now,all trying & vieing for your $$$$ & most have charges to join or will hit you with some sort of bill sooner or later. Another thing that happens is you begin to question your religeon.As your slowly dyeing you want to make sure that your in the right one eh?But just which of the religeons is right?I have studied with Jehova Wittnes's,&Mormons, in the last 2 yrs.I have also read alittle of the Koran & have read about Buddism.I still don't know what one is the right one.I think they all have some good points as well as bad points.I think i am a christian,as i really think that the bible is an accurate picture of history.It seems as time goes on more & more findings reveal the truth,& that the bible is history of man.& GOD.The thing is this...who decided just what scriptures to add?what about the ones that were NOT included??where are they?what ones are they by?We have 4 books out of a possable 12.Where are the other apostles writings?& just what religeons where around at the time of Christ?I know he read from the Old testament,at least i think he did.Did he NOT quote from the old testament when he was tested by satan?Yeppers 3 times he did. So ,with the hundreds of religeons,cults,sects,& other organizations ,what ones are good & what ones are not so good?Wiccan is another one,i know someone that is a wiccan & they are one of the nicest persons i have ever had the honour & privilidge to meet,& if all these profess Love & kindness,why then are there so many conflicts in so many places?there are aprox 120 wars going on right now in the world.Thats far too many!& nation shall rise against nation comes to mind outta the revelation i think it is.Its almost certain that we are living in what the Bible calls=End Times!!Floods,famines,locusts,wars & rumours of wars,earthquakes,sunami's,hurricanes,tornadoes.Its all there & we are going through everyone of them.& its only supposed to get worse as it gets closer to that final war,Armeggeddon.The war to end all wars!God himself is supposed to be in this one!Well,today looks nice & sunny out & i think i'm going for a stroll.My blogging has gotten way too serious lately with all this talk of End times stuff.I think about this stuff so thats why is blog about it all.I dont hold much back as you are probably already aware of eh folks?Well i wish you all a very good day,& respect yourselves enough that you will pass on stickin a needle into your arm,or taking the drink to help you calm your nerves.Ahh i'll just do 1!!I have heard that so many times!!OK well Peace n Love NOT Wars n Walls eh folks!!

Great News for India= Only 1/2 of Original est. R HIV+

NEW DELHI (AP) -- Experts originally said India had the most HIV cases in the world -- 5.7 million -- and that number could rise unless aggressive measures were adopted.

Yesterday, that consensus changed dramatically when international AIDS experts and Indian health officials revealed new data showing India to have less than half of that number -- 2.5 million people -- infected with HIV.

The government and the international community are paying more attention and spending more money to fight AIDS in India. Yesterday, the Indian health minister announced a new phase of the federal AIDS control program, with the Indian government pledging $1.95 billion -- nearly 40 times what it spent in the last round.

The plan has an expected budget of $2.8 billion and has attracted high-profile donors. The previous plan, announced in 1999, had a budget of less than $350 million.

Expanded surveys and an improved methodology provided a far more accurate -- and more encouraging -- portrait of India's HIV epidemic, said Health Minister Anubani Ramadoss.

Keepin Faith in GOD & Hope in Jesus Christ

Keep the Faith & Live,Learn,love & Laugh!

As a person living with HIV & HEP-C,Faith & Hope are a very nessary thing to have.In 96 i was charged with murder 2 & was inside 16 months waiting for trial.I wanted to attend church services,but was denied due to security reasons.So the paster would meet 1 on 1 with me.Finally after numerous request's & 3 months later,i was allowed to attend,& it was a very uplifting service.on my way back to my cell something happened that i cannot explaine.I had a feeling of peace & contentment & love that was...so strong & overwhelming!I put my trust in GOD & his son from then on.I was aquitted at trial in 98,& was released in time to bury my grandfather.GOD works in mysterious ways,but he does work.Trials & tribulations are our test,in this life.Its how we deal & react to these tests that we are either going to pass or fail.From my life as an Addict(coke,heroin & speed) i have learned that your body is a temple,as it houses your soul & should be treated as such.Not injecting drugs into it,taking you farther from him,but eating healthy,excercising & taking care of yourself. I am 3 years clean now,& do -harm reduction education & awareness Presentations at schools ,colledges,group homes & Universitys as well as Living with HIV & promoting HPV testing,(lossed 22 yr daughter to HPV in 04)I have lost so many friends to drugs & OD's that i have actually lost count!LOVE & respect each other,you never know when you will be called,or anyone around you.So keep the Faith & Always have hope!Without these you are a lost soul,wondering in a desert.With faith & hope you will have life after death,as long as your faith is in GOD,& your hope is in Jesus Christ,who can stand against you?None.Peace n Love NOT Wars n Walls!! james jc gough/sudbury ont .

Life Story of James Gough Jr.A Recovering Addict Living With HIV & hep-C

Well today i took a little "Speakers Training" & learned a few things
to add to my repetoir ,making it better for my personal WAR on HIV.I
really don't think they know how serious i am at access aids .I will
try & learn all i can,but still seem to be stuck on facts & figures
about HIV,& am having trouble gettin my story down so its good enough
to tell to others,but where do i start?guess a good start would be at
the beginning of my life,which started on Jan 6 1963,in the Hotel Diu
Hospital in Kingston Ont.The oldest goughs & parents moved to sudbury
in the early 70s.In 77 James Sr. died while sailing on Powell River
B.C. & so mom had to pay for 2 funerals.Gramps hung up when mom asked
him to borrow some money to burry my dad & said he never liked him
anyways,at least thats what i was told a few yrs back.Trying to go
through your life isn't fun .Something about it is very theraputic
though i so i blog on,ok,now i forget where i was!~figures~loljkok
back from j break & now i am not into bloggin about myself,as i know
myself already~!but this isnt supposed to be fer me,i guess its to
help others in watever way i can.ok so now my father has just died,& i
am 13 yrs oldwe move to kingston for a year,then my mom remarries
thinkin we needed a father figure,only she picked an alcoholic
salesman,& we didnt hit it off to good from the beginning & it went
quickly downhill from there untill it got to him chasing me with a
knife & cops escorted me off to the welfare office.where i was issued
a 90 emergency check,i got my first place on hazel,i remember because
at night we used to watch through an open vent, & watch them cleaning
bodies.so i soon drop out of school as well & strart selling weed to
support my party hardy lifestyle i was now full into,everyday it was
the same,wake up score some weed & then hang out downtown selling
joints,all the while we slowly gathered up our cases of beer then we
head to some party place,drink,smoke,pass-out.next day was the
same .in 88 my bro doug died in an car accent on his 22 B-day,he had
passed outin the middle of the road & a car came along & not seeing
him,dragged him 400 metres before relizing something was
wrong.Ambulence was there right away but had to wait 20 min fer the
tow truck & he died on the scene.I was living in SS marie at the
time,& remember the police man telling me he had died,& i tryed
telling him their must be some mistake.Soon after i got a call from my
mom,& had to tell her Doug had passed away & it still remains one of
the hardest things i have ever had to do,- On my 27 B-day party i took
my first needle of cokecaine & knew immediatly that i was Hooked-the
feelings & sounds were a rush!i spent the next 10 years delving into
the world of coke,again selling to support my habit,which was steadily
growing more expensive,i was having to move more coke & was soon
jailed for trafficking coke,did 3 months & was out.in 96 i was charged
with murder 2,spent 16 months in jail & then was aquitted at
trial.Hell i had no place to go,i wasn't ready for release & just
wanted to go back to my cell,& 3 months later i was back in.I had been
out for 3 months & grandpa passed away from cancer & at least i
managed to make it too his funeral before landing back in jail,this
time on a home invasion charge.I got 6 or 8 months & went to monteith
from Northbay.few months after getting out my cell partner & i hooked
up,partied for a week, he left come back a month later& we again
started useing heavey,only this time he od'd,& i tried working on his
body ,giving him CPR for 20 min untill fire & ambulence arrived they
tried to revive him but Jackson was gone,at rest & peace at last.i was
living on beach st & then elgin st rooming house,& stayed in a
room,cleaning the place in exchange for the room,again sellin here n
there,untill finlly had enough & signed into detox. I was there 2 wks
when on friday i found out my ex won a million bucks!I dont have to
worry about my son ever again i thought,asif eh?then monday came & i
found out my 21 yr old daughter was in hospital,dyeing from HPV.I went
& stayed by her side most of the time,going from detox to the hospital
kept me clean & when my baby girl started to cry when her hair started
falling out,I went home & asked my bro gary's ol lady lynn to cut it
all off which she did .She started crying when she saw i would go that
far just to make her feel alittle better & she was never so proud she
said.her 22 Bday july 5 we had a fireworks show for her & it would be
one of her final moments of joy,as exactly a month later she passed
away on august 5,2004,2 days after being sedated. I had already lost
my ex brenda & friend dave that summer from HIV-AIDS!i can't believe i
didnt mention her,as we went out for 5 yrs while useing,& she was HIV+
& i was still negative untill a few years later after we had split
up.Everytime i see a butterfly i think of her & smile.ok so now where
am i at?well i am not sur once again but believe i am up too
2004.Anyways my son & i had started hangin out & he helped me alot
through that .My mom had a stroke 2 yrs ago & has just been released
from Hosptial with diabetis.I am at this time going through a court
case.& the charge is fraud.Dec 6 i go to trial and i am out on bail
signing in 1 /wk at the police station. I have been clean off of
needles ever since signing into detox 3 yrs ago & am on the methdone
program.I am currently not on meds but am on multi vitamins & selenium
supplument.I try to eat alot of fruit & stay healthy.I now smoke pot
to help with my eating,if i dont smoke,i dont eat,its that simple.I
know i will die a slow,painfull death.Just how slow will depend on
when i start taking HIV meds& i have just gotten my geno-type test
done & should now know wat meds will work & what meds won;t.My cd4s
were last at 780,a jump up from 355 & My Viral load was 3,000.So am
waiting to see my next test which should be soon to see what course or
direction i will be taking.I have done 5 talks at local places in
sudbury ont. & am hoping to get my idea"Caravan of Hope" up & running
in time for the olympics in 2010.I want to go across canada doing Harm
Reduction safe sex & HIV-Aids testing Promo.12 HIV+ persons traveling
across canada doing tyhese talks at different places.Breaking into
smaller teams would mean we could hit more schools at the same time.So
far this is just my idea,goalwatever its wat i would like to do.I
thank GOD everyday that i am clean.Peace & love NOT wars & walls!

Nice Days

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well today is sat & i am bloggin abit at a few sites.Still Lookin for anyones help for this carvan of Hope just email me james gough at jamesgsud@hotmail.com GODBLESS All my fellow warriors in this war on HIV-AIDS,Peace n Love folkd,not Wars n walls eh!!!

My life story by james gough

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today was perfect with the temp at 24c

Note created August 1, 2007
WOW hot outside =33C-chillin at home with the A/c on full so its like a cool room & i go outside everynow & then to warm up!Today i managed to grab abit of herb,hard when theres No place that openly sells weed.We Need a compassion club here in sudbury asap!we have a major cancer centre for the north,& 150 HIV+ persons ,& all the other lethel diseases that pot smoking helps out.Need to get a vaporizer asap so it will be easier on my lungs.Feeling ok little tired though but the meeting went ok.I am worried about my bru & franco & wats next?Peace N love all!

Note created July 10, 2007
As a single perHIV,i have found it almost impossable to date.You think about when you should inform them about your status all the time!Trying to gage the best time to tell others is hard,because you never know just wat they are thinkin about you.I have done about 6 talks on HIV-AIDS & Harm Reduction & methadone awareness ,& most say how brave u r for standing up & telling everyone that u r HiV+,but i am not doing this because i am brave
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13,000 Iraqi's maimed in 2007 & the year is only half over! Make love NOT war!Get a grip Peoples!

Last edited August 16, 2007 by joeniceguy2007@gmail.com • Note created July 25, 2007
Well today i took a little "Speakers Training" & learned a few things to add to my repetoir ,making it better for my personal WAR on HIV.I really don't think they know how serious i am at access aids .I will try & learn all i can,but still seem to be stuck on facts & figures about HIV,& am having trouble gettin my story down so its good enough to tell to others,but where do i start?guess a good start would be at the beginning of my life,which started on Jan 6 1963,in the Hotel Diu Hospital in Kingston Ont.The oldest goughs & parents moved to sudbury in the early 70s.In 77 James Sr. died while sailing on Powell River B.C. & so mom had to pay for 2 funerals.Gramps hung up when mom asked him to borrow some money to burry my dad & said he never liked him anyways,at least thats what i was told a few yrs back.Trying to go through your life isn't fun .Something about it is very theraputic though i so i blog on,ok,now i forget where i was!~figures~loljkok back from j break & now i am not into bloggin about myself,as i know myself already~!but this isnt supposed to be fer me,i guess its to help others in watever way i can.ok so now my father has just died,& i am 13 yrs oldwe move to kingston for a year,then my mom remarries thinkin we needed a father figure,only she picked an alcoholic salesman,& we didnt hit it off to good from the beginning & it went quickly downhill from there untill it got to him chasing me with a knife & cops escorted me off to the welfare office.where i was issued a 90 emergency check,i got my first place on hazel,i remember because at night we used to watch through an open vent, & watch them cleaning bodies.so i soon drop out of school as well & strart selling weed to support my party hardy lifestyle i was now full into,everyday it was the same,wake up score some weed & then hang out downtown selling joints,all the while we slowly gathered up our cases of beer then we head to some party place,drink,smoke,pass-out.next day was the same .in 88 my bro doug died in an car accent on his 22 B-day,he had passed outin the middle of the road & a car came along & not seeing him,dragged him 400 metres before relizing something was wrong.Ambulence was there right away but had to wait 20 min fer the tow truck & he died on the scene.I was living in SS marie at the time,& remember the police man telling me he had died,& i tryed telling him their must be some mistake.Soon after i got a call from my mom,& had to tell her Doug had passed away & it still remains one of the hardest things i have ever had to do,- On my 27 B-day party i took my first needle of cokecaine & knew immediatly that i was Hooked-the feelings & sounds were a rush!i spent the next 10 years delving into the world of coke,again selling to support my habit,which was steadily growing more expensive,i was having to move more coke & was soon jailed for trafficking coke,did 3 months & was out.in 96 i was charged with murder 2,spent 16 months in jail & then was aquitted at trial.Hell i had no place to go,i wasn't ready for release & just wanted to go back to my cell,& 3 months later i was back in.I had been out for 3 months & grandpa passed away from cancer & at least i managed to make it too his funeral before landing back in jail,this time on a home invasion charge.I got 6 or 8 months & went to monteith from Northbay.few months after getting out my cell partner & i hooked up,partied for a week, he left come back a month later& we again started useing heavey,only this time he od'd,& i tried working on his body ,giving him CPR for 20 min untill fire & ambulence arrived they tried to revive him but Jackson was gone,at rest & peace at last.i was living on beach st & then elgin st rooming house,& stayed in a room,cleaning the place in exchange for the room,again sellin here n there,untill finlly had enough & signed into detox. I was there 2 wks when on friday i found out my ex won a million bucks!I dont have to worry about my son ever again i thought,asif eh?then monday came & i found out my 21 yr old daughter was in hospital,dyeing from HPV.I went & stayed by her side most of the time,going from detox to the hospital kept me clean & when my baby girl started to cry when her hair started falling out,I went home & asked my bro gary's ol lady lynn to cut it all off which she did .She started crying when she saw i would go that far just to make her feel alittle better & she was never so proud she said.her 22 Bday july 5 we had a fireworks show for her & it would be one of her final moments of joy,as exactly a month later she passed away on august 5,2004,2 days after being sedated. I had already lost my ex brenda & friend dave that summer from HIV-AIDS!i can't believe i didnt mention her,as we went out for 5 yrs while useing,& she was HIV+ & i was still negative untill a few years later after we had split up.Everytime i see a butterfly i think of her & smile.ok so now where am i at?well i am not sur once again but believe i am up too 2004.Anyways my son & i had started hangin out & he helped me alot through that .My mom had a stroke 2 yrs ago & has just been released from Hosptial with diabetis.I am at this time going through a court case.& the charge is fraud.Dec 6 i go to trial and i am out on bail signing in 1 /wk at the police station. I have been clean off of needles ever since signing into detox 3 yrs ago & am on the methdone program.I am currently not on meds but am on multi vitamins & selenium supplument.I try to eat alot of fruit & stay healthy.I now smoke pot to help with my eating,if i dont smoke,i dont eat,its that simple.I know i will die a slow,painfull death.Just how slow will depend on when i start taking HIV meds& i have just gotten my geno-type test done & should now know wat meds will work & what meds won;t.My cd4s were last at 780,a jump up from 355 & My Viral load was 3,000.So am waiting to see my next test which should be soon to see what course or direction i will be taking.I have done 5 talks at local places in sudbury ont. & am hoping to get my idea"Caravan of Hope" up & running in time for the olympics in 2010.I want to go across canada doing Harm Reduction safe sex & HIV-Aids testing Promo.12 HIV+ persons traveling across canada doing these talks at different places.Breaking into smaller teams would mean we could hit more schools at the same time.So far this is just my idea,goal,watever .its wat i would like to do.I thank GOD everyday that i am clean & almost serene!.Peace & love NOT wars & walls!

Today Choose Wisely Eh Folks!

So today was niced with the temp hitting 23c.Just wondering if my dream will ever become a reality & its not lookin like it will pan out the way i wanted or thought it would.Keeping the faith though,have to have hope eh folks?U dont have hope you dont have a chance.Choose your day to day secisions wisely & look after your fellow naybers & forgive others.Try to do wat is right in life .I thank GOD for everything i have everyday!Safe sex saves lives so save Life today ,the life you save could be your own if yur smart & use a condom!!!!PEACE N LOVE NOT WARS N WALLS FOLKS!!!!